I can't believe

how great my life is. & I'm not like "MY LIFE IS SO AWESOME" or bragging or anything like that. I just feel like the luckiest person in the world. My boyfriend makes me way too happy. He doesn't think any of the things I do are creepy. He jokes with me & laughs with me until our stomachs hurt. He is the just perfect for me & anything I've ever wanted/needed, will want or need.
that's all.

:)

Well, here goes

I don't knowwwwwwwww!
Finally, Emma is going to let me fucking meet Clarice.
That bitch. BOTH OF THEM.

Jiving Java tonight? I dunno what the hell that is, but I'm going, because I like watching/hearing Jamie play. Maybe I'll even jive some java? Whatev.
Got my anatomy lecture extra credit done! & I just need my lab extra credit & I just hate having lab the day after lecture D:
hate life.

Oh yeah

I can still never do anything.
Things are better.
& of course, none of you know what I'm talking about.
But that's okay, because you don't need to know. Because I KNOW.
& that's all that matters. Blogger, you're really just here so I can get things off my chest.


Mountain Dew Voltage is the sheeeeeeeeeit.
I have an English paper due tomorrow & I have half of a rough draft written.
Also, I have my big first Anatomy test Monday, which I REALLYREALLYREALLY need to study for.

Yesterday was cool.
I came to school, & I went to the gym right after. I felt awesome.
After I had sweat a bunch, I brought my stuff so I can shower. Now,
beleive me when I say this, you don't want to run around nekkid in the women's locker room
with all these old ladies are hangin out. litterally. titties & everything.
So, I went in the shower, before I started taking my clothes off. When then I turn the shower on & I realize I still have my bra on. But it only got a little wet. & I forgot they took out the hand dryers, so I had to use some paper towel. fuck.
but anyway, the rest of the day was good, straightened some things out with Jacob.
I wish I could go to the gym again today, but I promised Jacob I would see him.
I will tomorrow & then again & again everyday, unless it's a Jacob day:)


Well, I'm off to procrastinate.

Basically

everyone is stupid. & I don't mean it sarcastically. Everyone gets on my nerves, & I just don't care anymore. If people are really my friends & they give a shit, they're still by my side. & if everyone else left, then good fucking riddance. I'm glad I'm not wasting my time with anyone I don't need. & by the way, this is to no one specific, so no one start any shit, because of a goddamn blog. I've got 5 people who I call my friends. Who won't get mad over anything stupid. Who will understand. Who will hang out with me & laugh with me. Jacob, Britni, Andrea, Emma, & David, thank you for not being a total douche. & fuck ANYONE who talks about this blog.

Doors will open & they will close.

Life is going on. I'm too busy for anything anymore. I have to be focused, & no one is going to hold me up with any nonsense.

Like you, Blogger! I have to do some work, bye.

Also, I still try to be nice to everyone. Even if I don't like them. I'm still nice, I still try to joke around. I'm polite. I'm fucking better than that.

Everything is great.

Jacob & I have decided to take it to the next step. (not what you think)
but all I can say is I can be myself in whatever the situation is, & not worry about hurting anyone's feelings or feeling bad or feeling whatever.
It does feel good to let go [:

I just can't wait.

I just can't wait.

I can't wait to move out & into a shitty apartment with my friends.

& then move out of there, in with Jacob. & have a big ferrett cage & a big comfy couch.

I can't wait to get my associates as a registered nurse, & then get accepted into a big ol' fancy university.

I can't wait to do girly things, because I want to be a girl sometimes. & I like screaming & laughing & shopping & dress up.

& then I can't wait to relax with my Jacob & cuddle like there's no tomorrow.

I can't wait to get the most out of life.

No one will ever hold me back.

Goodbye.

I think

I just died a little inside last night.

Heeeeeeeeeeelllllls yeah

Raise at work. 7.50 to 8.00

Fuck. Yes.

Also, I'm forcing Britni to come with me to a mechanic tomorrow, because I'm scared I'll have to pay jillions of dollars to repair my car. HELP!

DON'T LOOK AT ME!

I don't know what I'm doing. I should really finish my math homework that I've had two days to complete. I'm kinda tired. I got my ring back!!!!!!!! Yes, it required that many exclamation points. It's so pretty. & I'm just so happy. I need to stop being such a bitch all the time. I feel like any time anything comes out of my mouth, I always have to have an argument or get mad at something ridiculous or just say mean things sometimes. & i really don't want to. all I want to say is I'm sorry & thank you to Jacob & my friends, or anyone who just happens to hear me talking. Whatever. My work schedule changed from going in 3 to close to going in at 2. So I have more hours. It'll be greeeeat! I really need to get the brakes changed in my car. I really need to start going to the Y! I need to go on a day that I don't work, just to see how long it takes, shower & everything, so that I can go on days that I work & i won't be worried about being late or anything. The diet's going well, it you were wondering. Everyone keeps trying to tempt with foods, but I just ignore, deny, ignore. I'm going to have to keep this diet up for a few months. I can do it right?
Also, this keyboard is so annyoing. I keep having to go back & capitalize my "I"s. Except that last sentence I did it right. & that last one, too.
I feel so comfy in Jacob's shirt today. I wasnt to cuddle in it all day.
Work today, tomorrow, & Saturday.

Hey anyone who reads this, let's hang out Friday?
Yeah? well, okay.
Go poop.

Back to shool, back to blogging?

You guessed it, I guess.
So it's back to school & I feel awesome about this whole semester because I'm going to kick ass at all my classes. Math 080 is a joke, because it's super basic algebra (don't ask, it's a pre-req for nursing). English 111 is gonna be great, because English was always one of my strengths as a class. & I like writing. Anatomy 2 is going to be a lot better, because I have a teacher that doesn't suck.
Also, instead of nutrisystem, like I said in the previous blog, because it's $300 a month & that's just ridiculous. I'm going with Special K! I've been on it for a few days & it's going great. Supposedly, for any diet in the world, you need to be on it for like 14 days for anything to start happening. Also, starting Monday, I'll start going to the Y after school. & everything will work out[:
Work is going well. I like the days that I work, because the manager on duty isn't lame. I like working with Deana :D So my work schedule is looking like Mondays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, & Saturdays. Maybe some Sundays if they need me. But definitely no Tuesdays or Fridays. I wrote my boss a letter, repeatedly telling him no Tuesdays, specifically, & highlighted. So, I think he got the message.
Today will be fun. I'm getting my newly fixed laptop, because don't ask me how, but something happened to my password & I couldn't get back in. Clint hacked it, & gave me full control of everything, because since I bought the laptop from someone, the administration was like shared, & I couldn't do everything I wanted. So it's fixed. & my mom got the router so Jacob can install the wireless internet, so that'll be cool.
Britni is coming over at noon, to watch Julie & Julia & make some sort of food, because I'm starting to get hungraaay. Then, Jacob's coming over after his classes, to hangout as well, until they both go to work at 6, & then Emma said to go to Futs. & while I'm in Lenoir, I might as well go to walmart & check on that ring! Lauren showed me hers yesterday, & it just makes me want mine even more D:
But anyway.
Things are still awesome with Jacob, because I know you worry, Blogger.

Dude, all I want to do is go to prom.
It's my fucking senior prom & I want to go with my friends.
But basically none of my friends want to go.
I just want to endless dress shop, with my girls.
& I want them to have MATCHING MEN!
& I want us to take pretty pictures, go to dinner, dance & have fun at prom,
& go to a late movie in our dresses! & OUR MATCHING MEN!
D:
Now, I don't like all the non-stop gay booty music they play, but hopefully they'll have some awesome mozart ball room music to dance to, too.