I can't update blogger :l

from my phone, but you already knew that. & I have no internet at home. But I'm on Jacob's laptop right now. Stuff has been pretty good. I recently got a job at Once Upon A Child, a children's clothing store in Hickory. It's pretty easy, other than it's non-stop. Especially on Saturdays. Crazy sales. Jacob & I have been trying to find him a job frorever. Just so everyone can stop bitching at him. Like, really. We been to like 25 places in the past week. It sucks. But luckily, I pulled into this Subway, & they're pretty much giving him the job "if his references check out". So that's really good to hear. I lost my social secuity card AND my birth certificate, so basically I don't exist. But I do have my passport, & I'm getting a replacement card in a bout a week, meaning I can FINALLY get my license. Fuck, yes, finally. We got this offer thing from Ford, to trade in our car for something better. & we get some money back, enough to get me my own car :D


Things are going great. I start school in a nother week. I have a couple of hard classes. Medical terminology & anatomy&phisiology. Along with the pain-in-the-ass English 4 senoir fucking project. So I have quite a lot to focus on first semester /:
& then work. So, help meeee!

Wish me luck. Senior year, bring it.
It sucks that I'm so young, but I also go to college.
Weird.

I'm also stuck on what career I want. I wanted abdominal &/or cardiovascular sonography.
But then I also had neonadil nurse. I love babiessss. I want to take care of them. Hopefully a bunch will survive. & that just feels good[:

I don't know. I'm just really stuck. I'm taking a SLIGHT interest in culinary. But not enough to like, make a drastic change in anything I'm going towards.


Alright, now I'm done blogging.

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Well, blogger,

My summer has been shitty. Well, not really. I've spent a lot of time with Jacob, which is really the most important thing. I really just wanna spend as much time with him, before he has to go off to basic training for 3 months, & then I can't see him /: God knows it's bad enough not seeing him Mondays & Sundays, rofl. We're crazy. N E WAYZ. I've hung out with my best friends [not including Jacob] like 3 times. Or the 3 times I remember. & it makes me sad & makes me feel left out that they make plans & they don't even attempt to talk to me, or invite me along or anything.
& I'm really not complaining or trying to start anything, I just wish all of my friendships weren't like this. But I mean, it's whatever. I guess every one just does their own thing in the summer. Or maybe I'm just extremely annoying or a really big asshole. Who knows. Haha, I don't even know why I'm bitching about it in a blog. I just feel kinda bad, that's all. & that's what Blogger is for. Spilling out my emotions & everything I'm thinking/feeling. Even if no one reads it, it's just good to get out.


Thanks, Blogger.
I think I should consider you one of my best friends.
Like, really.

Sometimes,

out of no where, I get this rush of hate towards everything & everyone. I wish people didn't have mouths to talk, or opinions to express, or the need to care about everything around them, that have nothing to do with them.
Basically, everyone should just mind their own business. Don't worry about what he's doing, or what she's eating, what their smoking, what your mom's drinking. Just leave everyone the fuck alone, let them BE.
So who cares if he's gay. Who cares if she wants to be a whore. Who cares if he wants to gamble away his money. Who cares if all they do is smoke weed 24/7.
Show a gesture of disgust, & move on.

I've just realized how extremely selfish I am. & I hate myself for it.