Happy Holidays, Blogger!

Mine & Jacob's anniversary was the 19th. So was Andrea's birthday. & Rico's birthday.


Snow ruined everything. My birthday was the 20th. Jacob's birthday was the 23rd. Had dinner with some of his family. Today is Christmas Eve..

Actually today's the 29th, but I never finished this blog the 24th, because I suck. Throughout the past few days not much at all has happened. I've been with some family, & then by myself. & then with Jacob. & then with people from work. I just feel bad for not being able to celebrate mine & Andrea's birthday.



I'm going to have to finish this later, because I have to take Rico to the vet. With Jacob.

So I suck again, but this is an actual excuse. His hind leg hurts real bad & he's constantly whining. I didn't get much sleep at all last night, because I was on the floor trying to comfort him. I think Jacob's here. Bye.

Alright, seriously? Time to finish this blog. It's New Year's Eve! I'm going to welcome the new year with open arms & I hope for great things to come. I can't wait for prom & graduation. MAYBE a raise at work. Hopefully passing Anatomy 2 with a good grade. You know! Whatevs.
& then at the end of the year, getting my first tattoo [: aaaaaaaaaaand hopefully my skin isn't too stupid to not let me get any tattoos. D:


Last night, Jacob & I went to eat at Olive Garden. His first time there, my first actual real date with dinner at a nice restaurant & a movie. We went & saw "It's Complicated" we got in free of course, thank you Jacob's job. I can't stop facebooking. My allergies have gotten worse. I really would like my sentences to flow about the same subject, but I just can't do anything. My car got fixed, because one day, when I was U-turning to go to Hickory, it stopped in the middle of the road. It sucked. In case you guys were wondering. But it's all good now. I want to watch Tim & Eric on adultswim, because I want to laugh. I bought lasagna to make in the oven for tonight. It's goona be great. I can never stop sneezing, so don't even ask. My phone just shut off randomly. My cousins are here, & they left to go buy something. My little cousin mentioned it's something to do with a Demon brought in by a package sent to my parents from my evil aunt. Everyone is so dumb. I can't wait for my ring to be sized & be on my finger already. I can't wait to show everyone. I got my hair a little layered & tiny bit of bangs. Yaros says I have a perm. It looks okay when I straighten. & I got it super thinned, so it's so much easier & faster to straighten. I wish everyone would grow up & not underage drink because it's so awesome. & I wish they would stop being stupid fucking faggots & post awesome pictures of them drinking straight from the bottle. Once again, I hate everyone. My dad said he was going to buy me nutrisystem to lose weight, because I really need to. I really want to lose 50-60 pounds, which puts me at 150-140. Great, you guessed my current weight. *gold star for you!* Anyway. I miss having friends. I can't wait till people get back from stupid florida & stupid texas. (lololol that one spongebob episode when sandy got rly mad, that's totally britni) haha. Alright, well I'm going to watch some tim & eric. bye.

& happy new years!

Sorry, Blogger.

Sorry that I haven't blogged in a while. Not much has happened since I've last blogged. Just a lot of work, & studying. All that studying to end up with a D in anatomy anyway. Today, it's Andrea's birthday, & I feel bad because all the roads are dangerously covered in snow, & there's just no way. Good thing I gave her her present ahead of time. Today is also Rico's birthday, because in February, when we got him, Jacob & I had just made it to the 2nd month marker, the 19th, in which Rico was 2 months old anyway. So he became our puppy. & speaking of Jacob, we're one year today. It seems like a lot, but I know it's only one of many. I was supposed to work today, but again, snow ruins everything. Jacob still had to go :l but later tonight we're going to go out to dinner to Olive Garden. I can't wait. I received at $25 gift card from work to go eat there. That happened at the Christmas party from work at pizza hut. It was so fun. There was a gift exchange, & dirty Santa. I swear, everyone was after my presents. Anyway, Lauren & I are talking again. I don't know why we ever stopped, but I think it was that little episode of nothing drama. Speaking of friends, I feel like I don't have any anymore. & it sucks a little bit.

I'm addicted to Facebook, bye!

oh, & tomorrow is my birthday.

& I can't wait for Christmasssss.

Because my brothers are coming dowwwn.

& I'm getting an iPhoneeee :D

my hair

USED TO BE SO LONG!waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

D:

I've got it.

new tattoo idea, dood.

so we've been studying the brain in anatomy, & it's been super interesting. I even dissected sheep brain, as I mentioned earlier. It's just cool. Anyway. So there's this part in the cerebellum, called the arbor vitae. & you can only see it split open. The whole cerebellum looks like balls, literally. It really looks like a ball sack. Anyway. So it's the part of the brain that controls balance & coordination. So when I was looking it up on google images, I found this:

it is the prettiest picture. Anyway arbor vitae literally means "tree of life." But also, it had a little story underneath about the garden of eden & whatever. But I liked that it said "It requires wisdom to ensure balance of our action with our intentions." Now, I've messed up a lot. & I think I could really use this as a reminder to just keep equilibrium with myself. & by doing that, I can obviously balance things with everyone around me. Which is good.

:D

Spiggidity.

So my thanksgiving break was okay, & then awful, & then it was alright again. I can't remember EVERYTHING that's happened, but I remember watching Twilight with Andrea, then going shopping (or this may have been last weekend, hahahah). Then sleeping in, I think I slept till 1. i can never sleep past 9 & it bothers me. I think I woke up at like 10:30, & forced myself to go back to sleep. Hung out with Jacob, did chores, the usual. Thanksgiving, I woke up early & helped my mom cook. I went to CVS to buy a billion gifts because everything was on sale. I have to return a few things though, cause I found better deals at Marshalls. Ate a bunch. Andi & Britni came over to sleep over, cause we were gonna wake up like, 3 am to go shopping. But our plans were ruined by everyone. I don't want to get into it, but anyway. Actually slept for a while, because I was going to die, cause I had to work 8 in the morning. So we woke up at like 5:30 regardless, & went along. Old Navy & Target were RIDICULOUS. I just said to hell with it, because there weren't that many good deals & it sucked. Went to work, it was really, really slow. Got off like at 11:30, shopped some more with my girls. Bought Jacob's gift, but it sucked so I bought a way better version & returned the other one. Also bought his bday gift, & the rest of our anniversary gift (bow chicka wowww ;]) haha. So I hqave evryone's present except Fernando's. Which I JUST fucking remembered I got him something super awesome. So I'm good. Now all da muney haz 2 go 2 gassszszsz D:
AAAAAND we get a super awesome bonus at work. Because like the second week I worked there they started making us clock out for break, & we usually don't. & they said all that was gonna be given to us in a bonus after or FOR xmas :D

I also thought I lost my Jacob ring, but I found last night! Super happs about that. My nails are really long & I need to cut them because they keep breaking, but I can't find nail clippers at hooome! I work today. I just wanna fb all dai.
I have to pee. So I'll catch you latesss.

Haha, & Fernando spells spaghetti as spiggidity, in case you were wondering. (title).
it's so cute!

Dude

All I have to say is:

• I had fun all weekend.
• Andrea deletes the most blog posts EVER & it makes me mad that I can't read the juicy details.
• I'm almost done making my dress, Kala & I woke up at like 5 this morning, went to my mentor's at 6 AM, worked onthe dress, it was a disaster, she was naked the whole time, we basically made the whole dress in an hour, & we went & got breakfast at the coffeehouse. it was deeelish.
• I rented Pulp Fiction, FINALLY. Jacob has been trying to get me to watch that movie for EVER.
• No school till Monday :DDDDDDD
• Stuffing my face SO MUCH Thursday<3
• Waking up 3 am with my girls & shopping like a muhhh fuhhhh.
• & then working Friday at 8 D:
• I'm extremely scared, because Christina said that people won't care to bloody your nose to get lil johnny that singing elmo!
• I like how this bulletin is in BULLETS!
• alright, well I just feel awesome, all of the time :D
• AAAAAND my asthma is stupid, so i got percribed TWO inhalers & some medicine that I have to take everydaaaaaay.
• ok, well, bye!

Oh &

here's that sheep brain :D

I was the only one who would poke & slice in to it. me & some guy in my class were the only ones who even put gloves on & played with the brain. everyone was too chicken shit [;

Not much

has happened at all.
all I remember about my life in the past 10 days is:
working, school, ANATOMY, Jacob, & girls.
school is awful as usual. I have to seniior project as much as I can before December 9th.
anatomy is going awful. I made a 74 on my last test. & yesterday, I made a 35 on my quiz in lab.
I also dissected a sheep brain. it was awesome.
Jacob is cute. & I remain happy as I have been for the past 11 months. 11 months today :D
we might go out to eat or something. we played chess yesterday & he kicked my ass. twice. I need to practice. Also we've decided to give each other some space, which I think'll be good. Because I'm just so stressed with everything, & I/he just wants to be alone sometimes. Everything's going great. I can't wait for Thanksgiving. I'm so scared to work Black Friday. Like rly rly scared. I actually think i might get up extremely early like at 6 or something, drag my girls out of bed & go shop for a couple of hours till I have to work. (8-4) D:
Monday we had girls night with Sophia. She made dinner & delish brownies. I love it when she's here & we all get to see her :D


I have to go pee.
til we meet again, blogger.

Chocolate.

I've eaten so much candy in the past 10 minutes. Well, that's what Fernando gets for leaving his bag of candy in the car. This weekend was lame. Friday I worked, & was supposed to have girls night at Andrea's, but my mom is dumb, & forced me to stay home for like, no reason. Saturday I worked. It was super busy & annoying. Some lady cussed me & some other girl out for not saying "excuse me". Some people, man. I hung out with Jacob after. We went to the see The Fourth Kind. It was creepy as shit. & most of it was REAL FOOTAGE! It was crazy. I'm scared of aliens. & being abducted more than ever now. It just sucks to know that we can be like, abducted EVERY night & not even know or remember anything about it. Jacob said that they mostly do weird experiments with genetalia, because they don't have any. I guess they clone. Sunday I worked. Supposed to see jacob but I didn't. He was in Lenoir at the movie theater, trying to get his old job back. He's got a pretty good shot, which is awesome news. & discounts at the movies for meeee :D
Today, I work. 1-8. It seems soooo long.
I work again Wednesday, because there's no school.
11-7.
this pay check better be fucking awesome.

let's do something awesome this weekend?

haha, puh-lease.

everyone can seriously kiss my ass. Drama is always created over nothing, & I don't give two shits about fxing anything with anyone, I just don't care. At all.
Done.

Pooh bear, winnie the pooh bear.

Oh, I just don't know. My mind is flooded with everything. I think I'm going to explode.

My whole weekend!

So it all started Thrusday. When my mom left. Went to school, went to work, it was normal. Friday, went to school, hung out with Jacob, went to my mentor's house & did stuff for my senior project. During, Will texted me & was like 'girrrrrl I'm David, let's hang out.' So I was like 'otayyy.' So he drove to Lenoir & met me at Walmart. Emma & Britni were getting off work soon so we met them at Lowe's. Then Eric showed up, because we were supposedly gonna go hang out with Lauren at Anthony's house. Except we didn't know it was gonna be like a half hour drive. So I guess were kinda close but just ended up turning around. & no one hung out with anyone. It was so awful, & I felt so bad for making Will drive forever, to see me for like 5 seconds, litterally. Not to mention Eric drive 80 the entire way, & it was hard for everyone to keep up. Blame it on the a-a-a-a-a-alcohol. Gay. So then we went to Blockbuster to find no movies. Saturday I went to work with no costume ]: Then hung out with Will & David for little while at the mall. On Halloween; everyone in the world was there with their costumes on, it was cute. Then I went to hang out with Jacob, you the whole jealous boyfriend thing, everything was a disaster because I'm such an inconsiderate bitch sometimes. I hate myself for it. But everything was good. This whole weekend we were supposed to stay up & wacth movies forever, but we were all so dead ]:
Sunday, I went early before work to my mentor's to work on my project some more. Then to work. Then with Jacob. Then to Britni's. Blackboard is such an asshole & was down Saturday & part of Sunday. I had an noline test to do by Sunday midnight, but I completely forgot about it, I was so exhausted, I fell asleep on the couch. & Friday I got my anatomy test back which I made a 70 on. I suck so much. I try to study as much as I can, do extra credit, take good notes in class, pay attention, yet I fail every test. & there's no homework, like no extra credit for lecture. I'm doing really well in my A&P lab though. but that's only 25% of my grade. Maybe it'll boost me up to a C. I just don't wanna fail this. I have to work even harder. Fuck.

Partayyyy

So this weekend, I am completely parent-free. I'm loving itttt. Yesterday was day one. & I worked till about 8:00 & went to my house to take care of my dogs, pick up lil' Rita & head to Britni's. I read everyone to sleep. Well, just Britni & I. Hopefully my medical terminology test is still available for testing at the testing center. Today, Britni & Emma work till late. We're supposed to go to Anthony's after & just hang out. Maybe rent some scary movies for Halloween night. I was so excited for Halloween, but I don't even have my costume at all. & it just sucks. Maybe I'll get something tonight. I do have a pink wig at home, so maybe I'll just be a witch or something. Blahhhh. I work Saturday 10-4ish anyway. Maybe I'll wear my costume to work. If I ever get one. Then who knows what.

I'm feeling a little better, except I still have a nasty cough.
Hope it goes away soon.

Oh, my God.

It's been so long since I've blogged. Or so it seems. Well good news, & bad. Good news: I got my very own first car! & it's so cute. My dad's been out of town. I need a break from smothering & 20 questions. this past weekend I've had girl time to the max. Which is great, because I haven't had girl GIRL time in forever. & I shopped til I dropped.
bad news: I've become extremely ill. First it was bronchitis, then it was asthma, then a sinus infection. Oh, & now it's a combination. HELP! ]:

& I love Jacob. So you know[:
new phone, & new carz! :D

Right.

I don't know what to blog about, really.
My sidekick has pretty much lost all service because we haven't paid the bill. I just want to use my new phone, but I want to keep the same number. Fuck, I think I might just activate my new phone & just have a new number. It's so annoying though, because then I'll have to text the world my new number. It's just so annoying. But I'm so impatient I think I might just do it today. I put anyone who's important in my new phone already. So I'm pretty much good to go.


Anyway, yesterday, Jacob & I were 10 months. It was cute<3

Parnormal monthiversaries?

So, Friday I went to see paranormal activity with Jacob, & supposedly his dad. But it was so packed, we didn't sit with him. Of course, me being the scary-cat that I am, I was shaking before the movie even started. It was pretty creepy. N E WAYZ.
Sunday, after work, Jacob came over & we went for a walk. Behind the culdesac where my street ends is a cute trail. & we laid there for a good while & we were so cute :D
Then all of a sudden, I look up & there was this guy just standing there. The place where we were laying was behind some houses, & there were kids playing. But this guy just stood there for a few seconds, before he started walking towards us. & by this time, it was starting to get a little dark. We laid on our backs trying to pretend that nothing happened, when the guy just turned & walked the other way. We thought he was coming to tell us to get out of there. Jacob didn't really see him, because he didn't put his glasses on in time. He was wearing like a dark hoodie & the farther he got, the more he started to blend in wih tht trees. I still think Jacob never saw him. It might've been a ghost. I don't know. Just ever since that movie, I've been extremely paranoid. I can't even go to the back room at work for more than a minute, without being totally creeped out. For no reason. I'm insane. I really think I need help.
I just can't do it.

Zombie pirates?

Yes! Jacob & I are going to party city today to buy our cute costumes<3

Speaking of Brian, he did our make up today & did an awesome job at making us look like zombies. it was really hard to get it out. For the whole week of Halloween at work, we're gonna dress up. It's gonna be so cute. I think I'm gonna wear normal clothes & have Brian do my make up after school & make it different & scary each day. This'll give him some practice for his senior project. Maybe I'll work Halloween & wear my costume.

but we've decided to be Cleopatra & Cesar :D

& this blog was from a little ago, I just never posted it, bye.

Oh!

& I finally ordered a Brand New shirt. I've wanted one since 7th grade, & I never got one. Till now. It should come soon in the mail. It'll be like christmas morning all over again. Except in the afternoon. & I celebrate christmas at midnight, not the next morning.

Whatever, I know what I mean!

:D
'citedddd.

Annual update

or weekly, anyway.
When this past week comes to mind all I can think about is Jacob, & his work, & my work.
Jacob's job at fedex was ruining our lives, & he almost got fired or something. & that made me mad, while I was at MY job, so I was about to explode if someone told me I did something wrong; good thing they didn't. But then he got things at his job fixed, & it's going really well. I've just felt really happy lately, & then really angry for no reason, I just think I WANT to be angry sometimes. Anyway, I really just want to hang out with my friends. Because I miss them, because I sometimes make plans, & I guess every one hates that, & never does anything. & it makes me feel like none of them give a shit. I know that's probably not the case, but I wish we were at least back last year, when no one worked & we had easier classes/no fucking senior project to worry about & we could actually hang out without a care in the world.
This post is all jumbled up, btw. Lauren recently got hired at my work place, & that's exciting :D
I'm doing pretty good in anatomy, but the lecture ruins my life, forever.
I REALLY need to start on my senior project, like badly.
I went to the doctor's monday & she said I have bronchitis. But it doesn't really feel like I have bronchitis. Maybe allergies & asthma or something. But whatever, I'm not a doctor. I need to get the flu shot.

Aaaaand, I'm getting a car really soon. It's sort of ugly. But I just need it for now.
1998 ford escort, come to mama.

$500000

I hate costumes that are so expensive.
Hateithateithateit.
It's like $80 for something you're gonna used ONCE.
sadofusd, I just want a couple's costume D:

AND!

I got my perioddddddddd.

Never have I been happier to get it.

Phew!

FINALLY.

it's finally getting colder. & I wore a proper sweater today, with a scarf. & it feels right :D
I can't wait for it to be colder, & I'll have to wear TWO SWEATERS, & TWO SCARFS!
But not really. One is enough. Gettin' moneeeyz today. I want to do something.

Make plans with me, girls!

My life revolves around

Work & anatomy.

& when I'm not studying with Kala,

or working with Yaros/Eleane,

I'm with Jacob. & I love it & everything.

But I don't have any GIRL time anymore.

& everyone just hates me.

In other news:

I just really want to sleep.

$7 elephant rides?

no thanks. maybe if the entrance fee was like $5. but no. it was $15. So I ended up paying $30, because I love my boyfriend, & I always want him to be with me when I'm doing something fun.
anyway, the lions & white tigers were amazing/terrifying. I love the circus. I love the cute animals doing cute tricks.
You should've seen Jacob when all the little dogs came out. & then again when there was a little dog walking around in a little elephant suit. He was freaking, out. It was the cutest thing ever.
We threw peanuts at the elephant, who immediately sucked them up like a vaccuum. So adorable.

I also feel pretty bad that I didn't take Fernando.
Because he loves stuff like that. I really should be nicer to him;
maybe he wouldn't piss me off all of the time. haha.

Like I mentioned in the blog that I blogged like 5 minutes ago, I really should be nicer.
To the people who matter, anyway. ha.

Geez louise

I don't know why, but everything/almost everyone is starting to annoy me. & it's nothing/anyone specific. haha, I just want that all to be clear. If the wrong person coughs I feel annoyed. If the wrong person laughs, or speaks I want to punch them.
This morning there was so much traffic to Hickory & I wanted to yell at them all, but I was with my mom, so I couldn't, or I think she'd take my driving privilages away, rofl.
I felt really bad when I dropped her off, because I was sort of mean.

I hate it when I'm mean to the wrong people.
I really do. It makes me so sad inside, like, a minute after it happens.

I really need to work on that.

Circus anyone?

I've been to the circus a few of times. I mean the big one. Ringling Brothers, barnum & bailey. & it was spectac.
Then I went to a circus down here, a small one, & it was okay. They werre kind of mean to the little dog who walked around, & the tiger, because they wouldn't do the trick/:

It always makes me sad when I think about the animals & all the harsh training they have to go through.



To be honest, I'm just expecting a couple of clowns to run around & slip on bananas. But hopefully it'll be a little more. & enjoyable[: can't wait.

Emma's fingers don't have to hurt now.

Happy birthday, I bought you a good mouse!
hahah no more tiny winy laptop mouse :D

Your mom gave birth to you today, Britni.

I hope you thank her :p
Well, shouldn't moms have like two birthdays? Like their birthday & their child's birth day?
"yeah, happy birthday Cindy"
'I FUCKING DESERVE IT, I WAS IN LABOR FOR TEN HOURS PUSHING THAT THING OUT OF MY VAG.'

So, happy birthday Britni, & happy labor day? Cindy [:

Pool party at my house!

tomorrow at 7.
be there.
or be square.

cookout & pool[:

Colons.

there's a million pictures of weird buttholes in my medical terminology book.
Just thought I'd share one with you:

Play Crack in the Sky

I can't stop listening to that song.
I just, can't.

That song will haunt me when Jacob's away.
It talks about oceans & being out there for months.
You just have to listen to it, really.

:l

Yes!

I'm super happy/overwhelmed.
I made a 99 on my anatomy quiz yesterday & like a 93 on medical terminology test today[:
Never thought studying would pay off so much :D


In other news:
creating talking avatars are fun.

Blogging from home

I finally got my own laptop. It's beautiful, haha.
I can finally blog from home now. Actually I think I always could have, but I'm too lazy to go to the computer room & turn it on & wait forever for everything to download.
Anyway, yes. Let's get this started! :D hahah

Well,
I don't really think I have anything to blog about, really. haha
Except that I love Jacob[:
But you all knew that :p

<3

All I can think about

is how sad I'll be when Jacob has to go.

"This story's old but it goes on & on until we disappear

Calm me &let me taste the salt you breathed while you were underneath

I am the one who haunts your dreams of mountains sunk below the sea

I spoke the words but never gave a thought to what they all could mean

I know that this is what you want, a funeral keeps both of us apart.

You know that you are not alone, I need you like water in my lungs."

This weekend we had girls night, we went to watch Inglorious Basterds, which was so awesome. Beside the point, we all went to Emma's & I started reading the letters John has written to Emma. Apparently, I'm the only one who can read them. Anyway, they were sosososoooo sweet. I cried at like, every one of them. Not only because it reminds that Jacob is pretty close to enlisting, but because I never thought John was that sweet. He acts all tough around everyone else, but inside, he's just a a bucket of love[: Haha.

It makes me sad though :l

As short as 3 months may seem, it really feels like a lifetime.

I know nothing bad will happen during basic training, that's not what I'm worried about.

I'm just scared when he's ACTUALLY out there, something bad will happen. Or some military slut will make him do weird drills, haha :p

I'm really willing to stick through it.

Just so you know.

I love that boy way too much to let anything get in the way.

<3

Anatomy & physiology

will be the death of me.
But Kala & I are studying hard & memorizing as much as we can.

In other news, work is good.
Friends are well.
& boyfriend is awesome.

So all of those things combined = a happy Renata :D

Best Flickr Ever.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jhcinc/

Update

Well, for one, I love Jacob, a lot[:
Two, Kala is going to be my new model, because she's actually gonna get married this summer, so we've been sketching & trying to plan her wedding a little bit in class.
Three, I work tomorrow, on mine & Jacobs 8th month-sery ]:
Four, I also work Saturday on my dad'sbirthday. Which I've been trying to get off, because we're all supposed to go to

Atlanta -_-
Five, I love my friends[:
& I really wish I could hang out with them more. But either I'm busy, or they're busy, or something always comes up /:
Six, I've started running. Well, jogging, walking, jogging, walking.
I started last night with Jacob, & I'm going to do it every day from now on.
I want to lose weight, bad.
Seven, I can't wait for fall/winter!
All I want to do is wear cute sweaters, & snuggle up in my sweatpants,
& wear moccassins all the time :D!
Can't wait to drink hot chocolate snuggled up with my baby watching movies downstairs on the weekends, &/or snuggle up with my girls at one of our houses drinking hot chocolate & watching girlie movies[:

I just wanna be cute<3

My senior project.

I finally decided what I wanted to do it on.
I'm gonna make a bride's dress! :D
I have to keep a seperate blog on it, so if you wanna know more about it:
www.renataquinogradproject.blogspot.com

[:

/:

So my head hurts. & I'm sick. My nose is stuffy, & my throat hurts.
& on top of it, I guess Jacob thinks I hate him :l

Help.

I can't update blogger :l

from my phone, but you already knew that. & I have no internet at home. But I'm on Jacob's laptop right now. Stuff has been pretty good. I recently got a job at Once Upon A Child, a children's clothing store in Hickory. It's pretty easy, other than it's non-stop. Especially on Saturdays. Crazy sales. Jacob & I have been trying to find him a job frorever. Just so everyone can stop bitching at him. Like, really. We been to like 25 places in the past week. It sucks. But luckily, I pulled into this Subway, & they're pretty much giving him the job "if his references check out". So that's really good to hear. I lost my social secuity card AND my birth certificate, so basically I don't exist. But I do have my passport, & I'm getting a replacement card in a bout a week, meaning I can FINALLY get my license. Fuck, yes, finally. We got this offer thing from Ford, to trade in our car for something better. & we get some money back, enough to get me my own car :D


Things are going great. I start school in a nother week. I have a couple of hard classes. Medical terminology & anatomy&phisiology. Along with the pain-in-the-ass English 4 senoir fucking project. So I have quite a lot to focus on first semester /:
& then work. So, help meeee!

Wish me luck. Senior year, bring it.
It sucks that I'm so young, but I also go to college.
Weird.

I'm also stuck on what career I want. I wanted abdominal &/or cardiovascular sonography.
But then I also had neonadil nurse. I love babiessss. I want to take care of them. Hopefully a bunch will survive. & that just feels good[:

I don't know. I'm just really stuck. I'm taking a SLIGHT interest in culinary. But not enough to like, make a drastic change in anything I'm going towards.


Alright, now I'm done blogging.

[:
<3

Well, blogger,

My summer has been shitty. Well, not really. I've spent a lot of time with Jacob, which is really the most important thing. I really just wanna spend as much time with him, before he has to go off to basic training for 3 months, & then I can't see him /: God knows it's bad enough not seeing him Mondays & Sundays, rofl. We're crazy. N E WAYZ. I've hung out with my best friends [not including Jacob] like 3 times. Or the 3 times I remember. & it makes me sad & makes me feel left out that they make plans & they don't even attempt to talk to me, or invite me along or anything.
& I'm really not complaining or trying to start anything, I just wish all of my friendships weren't like this. But I mean, it's whatever. I guess every one just does their own thing in the summer. Or maybe I'm just extremely annoying or a really big asshole. Who knows. Haha, I don't even know why I'm bitching about it in a blog. I just feel kinda bad, that's all. & that's what Blogger is for. Spilling out my emotions & everything I'm thinking/feeling. Even if no one reads it, it's just good to get out.


Thanks, Blogger.
I think I should consider you one of my best friends.
Like, really.

Sometimes,

out of no where, I get this rush of hate towards everything & everyone. I wish people didn't have mouths to talk, or opinions to express, or the need to care about everything around them, that have nothing to do with them.
Basically, everyone should just mind their own business. Don't worry about what he's doing, or what she's eating, what their smoking, what your mom's drinking. Just leave everyone the fuck alone, let them BE.
So who cares if he's gay. Who cares if she wants to be a whore. Who cares if he wants to gamble away his money. Who cares if all they do is smoke weed 24/7.
Show a gesture of disgust, & move on.

I've just realized how extremely selfish I am. & I hate myself for it.

I'm at Staples,

trying out this sweet touch screen computer with the flattest, widest, most awkward keyboard, ever.
& I'm wiff my babyyyy[:


that's all.
ciao.


and now IM typing bahaha
this is jacob dude
duuuuuuuude
staplessssss

my tattoo hurts
my feelings hurt from this stupid keyboard makin me look like a FOOL
and


im happy :)



boopboopboopbeepboop, I'M JACOB. THIS I b8ptgji yckunh lftf ROBOTTTTTYOu89n8u0i



naw.booty

okay, bye<3

& goddammit,

I hate everything D:

100th post!

Finallehhhh[:

Well let me just cover a few things that have happened over the past few days[:

Wednesday, Jacob graduated! & left for Florida. I miss him a lot /:
My brother came to visit that same night. He's leaving tomorrow, the same day Jacob comes home[:

So it all started Friday night. Emma, Britni, Andrea, & I went to Hickory. Met up with Shermie at the mall. We walked around, cause I wanted to know how much running shoes cost. I need some! The cheapest ones were like $80 D:
Then we went downtown, to Hickory Alive! It was alright. Walking around, we ran into Marilyn Monroe, first of all, hahaha, then Lauren, Matt, David, & Kelsey. It's always good seeing Lauren<3 I haven't seen David & Matt in a long time, & I haven't seen Kelsey even longer, so it was really good seeing them<3
Ran into a few more people. It was nice. We even danced around for the last few songs the band covered, it was pretty fun[:

After that, everyone came over to swim at midnight. Emma, Britni, Andrea, Shermie, David, & Matt. It was sweet. The guys left around 1:30, & the ladies stuck around & we ate my entire fridge. Actually, just a whole box of captain crunch & some hot dogs & fries my mom made for us :D We stayed up till 6! It was insane.


Today, we woke up & cleaned the pool & chilled. Britto & Andi had to be home, so they left. I made a sweet playlist on my iPod to listen to when we're at the pool.
A bunch of family came over to swim & have a cook out & I was wanting to tan. Britni came back & we tanned togetha for a little bit & jumped in the p00l! Played a bunch of games with everyone, it was great. She left, so I was lonely. I showered & I'm currently in bed snuggling by myself, watching Across The Universe. I wish someone were here<3


Good times.

You'll probably think we're young, naive, & stupid.

Dude, I don't care.

I love Jacob with allll my heart. & I mean it. Boy, you are on my mind constantly. You care about me, even when you're not with me, & I do the same. We get jealous over stupid fags on myspace, leaving weird comments & whatnot :p
We have our little arguments, but it's because we care so much. We're both very argumentative people, but we always get through it, no matter what. You make me extremely happy, & I, as well, couldn't imagine being with anyone else, because I also believe you're my soul mate[:
I hope we're together for such a long time, we get an award when we're old, covered with wrinkles & white hair, for being together for the longest time ever[:

You're already making decisions for our future, with the military decision, & whatnot. & I'm so grateful, for everything you've done for me. & I know you're always there for me, & would do anything for me. You're my best friend. I love you so much. I can't wait to get matching, loving, meaningful tattoos with you. I can't wait to have beautiful babies with you. I can't wait to have our UP story, or our notebook story, or our august rush story, or our p.s. I love you story. Just know, ours will be better[:


<3

I haven't blogged in a while

]:
Un-cool. I've just been pretty busy/lazy to get on my computer & blog, until today. & I dunno why I can't post a blog from my phone anymore. It sucks. Anyway, let me just cover a few things that's happened in the past couple of weeks: I've hung out with Jacob a lot, obv<3 My baby nephew, Adrian, has come to visit. It was nice finally spending some time with him! I got some bondage time with Amanda (baby mama), & she's not half bad. Well, compared to what my brother made her look like. It's all good. Been hanging out with a lot of family & friends. My pool is finally perfect. Andi, Brtini, Jacob, Emma, Brandon, EVEN RICO, can tell you that ;] Lots more poolage to commmme[: I've gotten a little darker, thank God. I was starting to look like a ghost :p
Went to see Up with Andi & Jacob, it was the cutest movie evarrrr!
My brother, Gabriel is coming to visit in a couple of days, Jacob's graduating & leaving for Florida in a couple of days ]:


I need to find a job!
This blog is so scattered on subjects. I suck, I know.


Oh, & I finally get my goddamn license at the end of the month! No more illegal driving, like I have been for the past almost 2 years, hahah. Woo!
& I'm naked in a towel writing thissss. Whatever. I love life[:

This school year

Has gone by sooooo fast, dude. It seems as if it were only yesterday, it was the first day of school & I thought everyone was stuck up & gay. It seems as it were only yesterday Andrea, Britni, & Emma invited me to eat lunch with them for the first time. It seems as if it were only yesterday that we all became great friends. It seems as if it were only yesterday that I first hung out with Jacob. This past year, I have finished "making" myself; who I'll really be for the rest of my life. & the only thing that I will always really stick to is the whole 'give respect recieve respect' policy, that I have recently added. I'm not pretending to be this hard ass anymore. I thought I used to be. & the thing is, I really USED to be. Ever since the middle of this year, I've gained 'girliness'. I cry now. I tell you if something is bothering me. Things hurt me/my feelings. I don't ignore it & say 'fuck it', when something goes wrong anymore. Even though I still do that a lot. I just think that's a bad way to handle something. I CAN say, though, that I'm maturing quite well. Even though my sense of humor will forever be immature :D
I'm Renata, nice to meet you,
Asshole.

;]
& it's only proper for me to remain as vulgar as ever. Duh!

Last fm

Is pretty okay, I guess. Pandora IS better, but it doesn't work well at school, because of too much streaming. Anyway, I typed in Trash Talk, because I pretty much like them now. Pulling Teeth came up, & I remembered Jacob owns one of their band tees, so I checked them out. I don't like them that much. I really, like, really like Trash Talk, though. All I wanna say is, thanks, Jacob. First Iron & Wine, then Trash Talk. Easily moving me up to greater music :D
They're playing Tremont in June.
Okay, done.

I'm

STUPIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

Whatevaaaa

Jacob not having a car, makes me want to kill everyone.

I hope it's fixed soon.

d00d

Everyone posts blogs that actually like, talk about something. & by everyone, I mean Britni, hahahah. Nah, People have good blogs, that are funny, or interesting. Mine are all boring, really. I blog about my weekend, & there might be one or two ACTUAL posts in the whole 93 of them. I don't have adventures. I don't look at life differently, or at all, to be honest. I don't invent juice. I don't get good grades on math tests. I DON'T DO ANYTHING! I wish I could always do all of these things. Well, the juice thing once in a while, too much work :p
& that's my problem. I'm extremely lazy.

I suck, basically.

PROM!

Prom was super awesome. It was me, Jacob, Emma, & John. We went to the walking park to take pictures, where we ran into our whole school, ahah. We went to eat the the Bistro, downtown Lenoir. We got ice cream across the street. Jacob got a flat tire, so we were downtown forever, till my mom came & got us, took us to prom, & left us the car. She's sweet[:
Actually danced a lot :D
Went back to my house & watched Across the Universe. Jacob slept over[:

Pictures! Of course<3

Emma & myself the night before, face-masking :D

Only short dress at the whole prom, only gold dress at the whole prom, we're cool[:

3 blogs in one day? I'm awesome

but not really. What is awesome! Is that, now that I'm certified in my first period, I never have to go in there agaiiiin. I can go tudor some fgts, go to science with Emma, instead of the usual with Andrea & Britni, so mI get to leave early! 12:30[:
thank youuuu un-normal highschool. & this is my last blog about IC3, hahahahahah.

Might I add

how excited I am for prom! It's tomorrow. Emma & I are going to get our hair & nails done togethaaa. Jacob called me yesterday, & he was so cute. He thought prom was today, because all yesterday he thought it was Friday, hahaha<3
So, last week we ordered my corsage & his bootineer, like I said in one of my other blogs. & I told him just to pick my corsage up seperately, I don't want him to see his & I don't wanna see mine eithaaa[:
Then we might go all together in Jacob's car. & coincidence, his car matches us :D
We'll go eat, take pictures together. Andrea & Britni will join us to go take some pictures in dresses[:
& then afterward, we'll go to my house & watch a couple of movies! Across The Universe<3 & Moulin Rouge (sp). It'll be great! I hope. Because Jacob hates John & vice versa, hahahaha. Wish us luck<3

I will definitely have a blog up Sunday about prom, with pictures. Hopefully. If my computer's not gay. If it is, then expect a super long blog Monday about my weekend, hahha, usual blog ;]

So, yesterday

The girlsss & I worked on our science project that was assigned to us like, a million years ago, & the teacher finally said it was going to be due Monday. So we had to work on it! It had to be something Mythbusters, so we had to do some experiment that they did, just to test it ourselves. So we picked the potato lightbulb one. Making the lightbulb light with a potato. But we're doing ours a little differently. We're gonna power up an iPod. So to include in our video to make it a little funny, we actually dressed Andrea up as a potato, Emma as a cabbage, & Britni as a carrot. I was the farmer [: We're going to see if any of those veggies can do it as well (which we already know won't, but we needed to make it more interesting than just a potato). So, anyway, I'll post the video some early Monday when I'm done editing it. We're going to do the actual experiment today after school. But you know, whenever we do something, there's always a photo op involed :D

& that's how we do[:

I got

FUCKING CERTIFIED! :D

So, I have an A in that class. I found out I'm ONE POINT away from a B in my psychology class ):

I'm going to go take my com 120 exam to see if I can up it to an A, I have an A in chorus, OBV. & I have close to an A in science. Hello! Now I can come in to school around 9:30 instead of 8:15, help tudor some stupid fucking freshmen till lunch, go to science & leave at normal time 2:30. No more psychology till 3:45 :D Hoooooorahhhh!

20 more days till summer<3

One more test

to pass to be certified for IC3! :D
Emma's next to me, & she says that all I ever blog is IC3 ]:
hey, its emma... leave a message.
N E WAYZ. I scraped my knucle againt the pavement yesterday. Took a big chunk off. It hurts so much ]:
I'm changing all my smileys, btw. From (: & ): to [: & ]:
I might think they're cuter.
I have nothing to blog abouuuut!
Jacob & I decided that after prom, we'd go to my house & watch Across The Universe :D

Psychology exam later. Wish me luck!

The library's pretty cool.

I love it. It's so peaceful & quiet. Unless some asshole & their groups of friends decide to come in here & "study" & lol about penises. I'm on Jacob's laptop. I finally go it fixed, & it works perfectly :D You're welcome, Jacob :p
This couch is comfortable, I've got a good book & my cellphone right next to me. & a cute puzzle in front of me. Even though I suck at puzzles. I still come in here with Britni & attempt to put ONE piece together haha :D
Woooo, nothing really to blog about except my weekend, which is my usual Monday blog haha.
I suck. I don't remember much of Friday. I think I hung out with Jacob. I have bad memory. Saturday I hung out with Jacob alllll day, & it was so good. Around noon we went dowtown Granite to by a corsage & bootineer (sp, hahaha) for prom. & it's gonna be great. Then we went down town Hickory, walked around forever, went into a cute prom store, looked at some jewelery. Then we went to the mall, where seriously, we ran into 2049823409 people we knew. It was great. We went back downtown & watched 'Taken'. I had already seen it, but Jacob wanted to see a movie, & I knew he would like it. Which he did. Prom is Saturday, & I'm so stoked! Even though Emma's not going anymore cause John never got his permition slip signed & referenced & shit. Which the slip in general is stupid, I dunno. Anyway. I wanted to go to a party after prom, the usual. But, it's the middle college, hahaha, & I don't think anyone knows where any good after parties are. & to be honest, I wouldn't be comfortable going to one. Jacob & I made a promise to stay drug & alcohol free :D
& I'm staying tobacco free as well! I have been tobacco free for the past couple of months or so, so that's great. I was looking into the whole 'edge' thing, but I guess it wouldn't be a fair title. The only reason I quit smoking, is because all of a sudden one day, I got sick of it. I couldn't bear to inhale or smell the smoke any longer. & after the last time I got drunk, I said I would never drink again. (horrible vomiting & hang over) whatevsss. So, if I said I was going 'straight edge', it wouldn't really be because I want to do it for myself, you know? But it's whatever, I don't need that title. All I know is that I'm drug/alcohol/& tobacco free as of March or so, 2009 (: Good for you, Renata!
Anyway. I found out I have between an A & B in my com 120 class. Some dumb personal communication college class. I have a 90, to be exact. I think I might try & take the final exam to get it up to at least a 93 (A). I wonder what I have in my psychology class. Hopefully it's at least a B. the class is easy & understanding, but a lot of the tests are pretty hard. Oh, well. I need English 4 & I'm thorugh with highschool. I registered for some more college classes, & I'm taking some hardass anatomy & physiology classes. It's all going towards my program of sonography. Then I get to do about a year & a half & I'm done with everything :D
I'm so excited. Wish me luck.
Tomorrow, hopefully Emma will remember to bring Across The Universe for me to force Jacob to watch. I fucking love that movie. So much. SO MUCH. I have to pee right nowwww. I'm waiting for Andrea & Britni to finish their exam & then maybe go to lunch, but I doubt that. Speaking of more exams, my psychology one is tomorrow. It depends on how I'm doing, if I'll take it. Which I most likely will.
Longest blog, ever? Sorry. I'm done now. Bye (:

& then I lost it

I cut off my hair. It's so short. I seriously cut off like 23093 inches of hair right off. I'm still getting used to it ):
& my phone sucks at taking pictures. Whatever.






I've worn skirts to school for the past three days. One was a little dress to look all cute. Then I had a chorus concert- black skirt. (the concert went well, btw.) & now today, a white skirt. I'm presenting next period. It's a skit about job interviewing & I'm giving all the interviews. Wish me luck! I'm leaving after next period to take meet Jacob at my house, & then take my grandma to get an MRI. Should be fun. I'm on my period & I hate you. I should OD on Midol. The pain is really that unbearble. I just ate a banana for some extra help with the cramps. But last night, seriously, I almost died. I'm also sick. First I thought it was allergies, cause it was just my nose. But then as the week went on, my throat has been a bitch. Being all dry & whatnot. Hellllp! THE SWINE FLUUUU, rofl. Shut up, piggyiggyiggy.

I love IC3!

Haha, but not really. I passed my first test, though! Which is such a relief. My average in my class in now a 33 or something. Which sucks, but still. I'm getting there. Studying on test 2. Wish me luck.

FUCK IC3

In my first period, my teacher thought it would be a cool idea to base our last fucking nine weeks on three big tests, that ARE NOT easy to pass at ALL. & I think we get like 2 tries on each. & I tried the first test once, which I failed. We take practice tests, & it just depends on what my grades are. Sometimes they're good, sometimes they're bad. So, I have no average right now, unless I pass something. Which is fucking stupid. If I fail all these tests, I don't have a grade which is a fucking 0. Which pretty much makes me get a C for the whole semester. Me, working my ass off everyday to fucking get good grades, & it doesn't matter at all. Awesome.
Fuck this.

Wooooowowowowwoowooo

My weekend was alright.
Friday, I hung out with Britni, Emma, & Jacob. After school, Emma & I got some delicious ice cream & talked about weird stuff, I forgot. We went to Britni's, talked to her mom about some more weird stuff. We went to my house, hung out with Jacob & the puppies. We went to Brian's birthday party, which was fun for a little while, but it was outside, so I cried & ran away from stupid bees. I know they won't sting me, they're still annoying. We were gonna play some laser tag afterward, but it started thunder storming, & no one felt like going anymore. So we stayed in my basement, watching movies till midnight. Emma & Britni fell asleep on the couch, so I went in the guest room & slept by myself ):
Saturday, we woke up, ate cereal, (which is seriously all we do at my house, haha). We went to Belk in Lenoir, because there was a little fundraiser thing for our school, so we went to help out. But we didn't need to, so we walked around. I got new underwear & a bra, which can also be strapless for my prom dress :D I went home, & did like, nothing else. Slept & watched TV & stuff. That's basically it.
Sunday, I woke up feeling like shit. My glands felt really swollen, & my throat was really dry, as much as I tried drinking a lot of liquids. We laid around, which is what my family does Sundays anymore. We were supposed to clean the garage as an 'activity', but no one really felt like it. I went to Wal-Mart with my little brother, where I met Jacob, did shopping, & went home. My dad is always a fucking dick. ALWAYS. So, I got into arguments with him, as usual, & I'm still mad at him, he's always so fucking rude & fucking inconsiderate of other people's feelings. & I'm hardly talking to him. I don't think he understands the concept of 'give respect & you'll get respect'. So fuck him. Jacob & I made sandwiches, & went on a picnic, in my back yard, when the sun was setting, because it was disgustingly hot allll Saturday! It was nice. Then we laid out there for a while, till Fernando ruined it, & went out there. Then it was more ruined, because my dad went out there, for NO REASON, & turned on the porch lights, which fucked up our star gazing.


Basically, I fail at doing everything, & when I do, please feel free to yell at me & call me all sorts of names. Thank you.

Runt of the litter

Yeah, well, he died. Jacob announced him dead when we were petting the puppies with out index fingers. He was very weak, & it seemed as if he wasn't eating at all. Jacob & I tried feeding him a few times with a little baby bottle we bought at Petsmart, but he just wasn't eating. At least we tried. We buried him in my back yard right in front of one of the trees. Maybe he'll help the tree grow<3

I have 8 new puppies.

Molly, popped them out yesterday morning. They're adorable. She's a chow mix Australian Shepard or some shit, & the father is a chocolate lab. Or there could be a few fathers. Who knows. But here they are! :D

They're freeeee, in a couple of months. If anyone's interested<3

Blowing Rock, North Carolina

is one of the cutest places I've ever been to. I really do love the mountains. & no, Jacob, I don't hate all of North Carolina :p

I love the view. & it's really just a cute place to shop, eat ice cream, play at the park & eat a nice restaurant with a nice view. Even though ears pop a lot ):

These are all taken on my phone, so they kinda suck. I'm uploading the better camera quality ones on my myspace (:

& this is us shopping! :D

A good day (:

Spring breakage

I haven't blogged all week, or so. Lets go over interesting shit that went down:

Monday: I went to the eye doctor, & that bastard kept poking my eyes & making them water. Then I took my grandma to therapy for her bad hips. Good deed of the day!

Tuesday: I went to Britni's house for a while, to dye eggs & make brownies with the girlssss. We then went to the movies to see Hannah Montana. IT WAS SO GREAT. Not gonna lie.

Wednesday: I hung out with Jacob. He mowed my lawn like all day, so we didn't get to spend that much time together. We were gonna go to church, but went to the mall instead.

Thursday: I hung out with Jacob again. I drove my mom to work really early to keep the car. Jacob came over to finish mowing. I took my grandma to the salon so she could get her hair did. Jacob & I went to Charlotte to pick up my cousins from the bus station. They're visiting. Fernando had a little birthday party to go to at Hickory Dickory Dock, where we later discovered had free laser tag after 9, like all the time. Awesome. My first time playing laser tag, & I was the only girl on the team. It was really fun. We won.

Friday (late tonight): I woke up in the afternoon. I went to breakfast with my grandma, Fernando, & my cousin around 1. Jacob came over after & we hung out for a little bit, before we went to Hickory. We promised Fernando we'd take him to Monsters vs. Aliens & then play laser tag at HDD. So we did. The movie was really, really good, in fact the best 3-D movie I've ever seen. It made me laugh a lot. HDD was super packed. Turns out not only do they have free laser tag after 9, but on Fridays, they give you free pizza & drinks. It was fun, but not so much cause we had to wait in line forever. Jacob's adorable step brother, Stephen, came & hung out with us. It was nice. & we fucking won both times we played. I guess the thanks goes to us ;] I came home late, at about 12:30, which is the latest I've ever been out with Jacob, only to find people karaoke-ing downstairs.
I'm really tired, but I can't get to sleep with so much noise. Therefore I'm blogging, mobile! I'm so glad I finally got internet on my phone.

Good night!

Dear Blogger,

I didn't know who else to turn to. I hate the phone & my dogs can't talk. Jacob just left, after spending a great afternoon with me on this pretty Easter Sunday. But right before he left, he said 'are you sure you're not losing any feelings for me?' I don't know why in the world he would ask me that. I think anyone with eyes can see we're two love birds. I can never get tired of you, Jacob. Ever. I don't think I could ever lose feelings for you, unless you did something horrible to me, like kill my family/pets or cheat on me or some shit like that. I love you. I simply don't WANT that to change. (I didn't want to sound cliché & say 'that'll never change', because I honestly don't know that). We could never do anything sexual for the rest of our lives, & I bet I'd be happier than a mouse with a lifetime supply of cheese. I don't care whether we do anything or everything. That to me, doesn't decide or measure how much you mean to me. Nor how 'passionate' one is to another. I'm sorry I don't know how to express myself to you correctly, but we'll get there. Its worth the wait, however long it may be<3 I couldn't imagine being happy one bit, if I'm not with you. I mean it. You're perfect to me. So don't you dare ask me 'what you can do better'. I'm with you, because of who you are, not what you can do or be. I'm very pleased with you. I'm not someone who keeps much to herself. I'll tell you if something's bothering me. It made me feel bad when you asked me that tonight. Silly tears ran down my face as I hugged you. I don't ever want you to doubt me, or yourself again. Like I said, you're perfect. I try my best to be a good person, keep you happy, as well as myself happy. Believe me, I'm keeping you for as long as I can<3

I feel disgusted

I feel disgusted with myself.
With everyone I know/used to know.
With everything they do or say.
I'm disgusted with people trying to be something they're not.
Disgusted with how they choose to portray themselves.
I'm disgusted with how I used to be, how I used to act,
how I used to talk, how I used to think.
I'm sick of not making sense.
Not even in my own head do I make sense.


Fuck Renata.
Fuck you.
Fuck everything.

I wish people took some pride in themselves once in a while.
I wish everyone wasn't so worthless in my eyes. In your eyes.


I'm insane, basically.
I babble on about nothing.
Not only do I babble in my head, I have to do it on Blogger.

I apologize.

Soon to be deleted.

Aggression

I don't know why I feel so aggressive. I just WANT some bitch to get in my face & me just destroy her. & with so much anger, I bet I could. I bet I could.

MINE

This is MY idea, for one of my first tattoos. I've been thinking forever, & I don't want something that everyone think is so simple, or already has, or even has though of. I want it to be meaningful, & I want it to be original. & I finally thought of something. I was looking at feet tattoos yesterday, & I was like 'that is so cute! I want one.' Then they were nice designs & others had words. But then, it hit me. 'The Creation of Adam.' I fell in love with that painting in the 8th grade. So, I was either thinking of getting it on just one foot, maybe even the rest of the bodies, or maybe just a hand on each foot. & the space between the fingers would be at the curve of my feet, when I put them together. I believe in God, it could mean that. But it could also mean epic fail. That God never touched Adam, therefore there never was. However you think or view it, it's symbolical. & it's my idea. My very own. I'm proud. I want it. I cannot wait. Even though it'll hurt like a bitch, I'm ready. But before this, I want a smaller tattoo, somewhere else. I was thinking of the inside of a peace sign somewhere. I really want one on my earlobe. Then I was thinking of a cute little sail boat with stars somewhere. & definitely the outline of the country Peru somewhere, maybe on my upper back. Because I'm fully Peruvian, obv. Moo moo.


& then I just thought! The Creation of Adam tatt can also be on my chest. But then it'd look kinda creepy if I wore a tank or something, & you just saw fingers or something. I dunno. Then I'll get something simple on my feet. But then I was thinking of getting a heart rate/pulse thingy on the left side of my chest. hmmm! who knows.

Andrea is a paint master

Just so everyone knows.

She turned this:

& this:
into this!

INSANE. I look like a giant freak & Jacob looks like a tiny forest elf. Hahahaha. Weirdo with a beard-o ;] Courtesy to Evan Almighty. I painted his face at the rodeo I mentioned in the blog before, btw. He's not that weird, to just randomly walk around the mall like that.

Weekend!

Friday, I hung out with Andrea & Emma. We went down town Hickory & saw Bride Wars! Because that's them, haha. It was really cute, too. Met up with Jacob & his friend Brandon afterwards, & went to IHOP with my parents. Ate some pancakes, & the whole time, it was hysterical. We went into Barnes & Nobles for like, 10 minutes, because they were closing soon. I ran into my used-to-be- bff, Santana. It was nice. I really miss her a lot. They slept over, & we fell asleep on the couch, watching Semi-Pro.

We woke up, I showered, got ready, & went back downstairs to wake the others. Ate cereal, & watched One Missed Call. Stupid, but there was nothing else on, so whatever. Jacob came over, & we left with err'body to the rodeo! Hahah, my first one. It was kinda lame though. I painted a million faces though! I volunteered, & made 4 year old's dreams come true of having a cute ice cream cone painted on their face. Everyone seemed to get sunburned but me ;]

^^^ I painted Jacob's beard-o, & Andi did the Twin Towers, roflll.

& JACOB GOT SUNBURNED AROUUUUND HIS FAKE BEARD, hahahah.

We then went back home, just Jacob & I, & got his car & went to Hickory. We met his mom at Fashion Mart near the mall, where I got my dress. We ordered his vest, because they had the color, but they only made it for little boys, haha! I bought a cute handbag to go with my dress. I was thinking about getting shoes, but since by gooold dress has a silver button, I can wear either gold or silver shoes, & I already have silver shoes. But I'll have to see. & about the jewelery, as well. We then went to the mall. We ate Subway, mmm. Then walked around, went into Charlotte Russe. I bought the cutest dress in the world. & this nice shirt I'm wearing now. Walked around some more, & ran into Lauren & her group of buddies (: It was good seeing her. We ran off like little girls & went into Claire's & took pictures. Then we left, to meet my parents in Longview at a football field to egg hunt. But we got there late, so we played on the swings & slide, forever, until some guy caught in mid-kiss & told us he had to lock the gate. Basically, gtfo! I was extremely embarrassed. I think that if I was with any random boy, I wouldn't care. But since it's a special boy, I was embarrassed because I think it's something private. I dunno, I'm dumb. We met my parents at Barnes & Nobles, got some coffee & the best double chocolate cupcake, EVA! We talked a bunch about philosophy, & I respect that you want to be a lunatic philosophy professor, Jacob (:

Sunday, I honestly did nothing. I sat in bed, in my pajamas forever, watching endless movies on HBO. I got up for like, 20 minutes to go with my mom & grandma to get her perscriptions at CVS & then some $1 sundaes at McDonald's. That's it.

Well, now I'm dumb

Because according to Jacob's myspace status & last blog, he's acting weird & as if something's wrong & bothering him. & I dunno if it's me, or something. Although I don't remember doing anything. I dunno. I'm dumb. I just wish I knew what it was so I can try to fix it.

Whatevs :l

My kissy face is so funny

Accodring to Emma.
I was TRYING to moomoo.
But she says I was trying to kiss her.
Jacob will frown upon this matter. Moo.










Moo moo moo moo, moo moo moo mooooo.

Fuck crutches

FOR REAL. I hate them. I used them for an entire school day. Which was a mistake. Because I have to go to different buildings & they're all a billion miles away. So, today, I said 'fuck you' to the crutches. I'm limping everywhere, going negative 10 miles per second. I'm applying the pressure to most of my heel, & stretching it when I'm sitting down. So I should be fine in a couple of days. Fuck sprains. My entire upper body is sore. It hurts to move. I have bruises under my arms. I went to Andrea's house to get a wheel chair, but she couldn't find it, so she gave me a walker. Which is embarrassing for me to use & make me look like a grandma ):

At least I'm not this little mousy<3

Well, I broke my foot.

But not really. Let me start from the beginning. Friday, I went to the movies with Jacob to see 'The Haunting in Connecticut'. It was good for me, because I'm scared of the world. It was okay for him, because the only thing that scares him, is real ghosts, (which he has seen), & real ghost videos. Anyway, I enjoyed it. Saturday, he was over like, all day. Later that night, we went to my friend Ashley's sweet 16. We got all dressed up nice, too :D
Not to mention he was the only guy like, dressed up, nicely. & we were the only cute couple there, & we danced, when no one else would. An old couple there tried to steal our spotlight, but no. We were better ;p
We slow danced, & did the cha-cha slide. You know, the usual :p
He came over after, & we watched Aladdin. Sunday, I fell down the stairrrs! Which is always cool. I sprained my foot/ankle really bad. My parents thought it'd be funny to leave me home alone, so I called Jacob & he came over & 'took care of me.' It was cute, though (:


My mom took me to the emergency room later, just in case. I couldn't move my foot at ALL, as much as I tried to. I had to crawl on my knees, up the stairs, & on my butt to go down the stairs. Monday, I didn't go to school. Because I just didn't feel up to it, not to mention I suck at crutching. I did practice though. I slept like alllll day. I took a shower in my grandmother's handicapped shower-chair. Which is awful. I dunno how she does it. Jacob came over for a little bit. Gave me the prom stuff, that I have to turn in today. & we made CDs.



Today: I came in the backside, of the building where my first period is. As soon as I crutched my way to my desk, I heard Emma & Britni storming in laughing. & pointing, at me, of course. I'm still cool, right?



Wish me luck today. & tomorrow. Because I'll have to crutch all around campus ):

Dinosaurs

The TV Show! God, it was a good show. & the baby hitting the dad over the head with every thing. Ah, good times.
I wish it were still on. Emma & I are going to buy all the seasons on DVD & watch them everyday. Serious.

& then

I almost did something stupid, that I know for a fact I would regret. Thanks to the stress & pressure my parents have me under, Jacob & I spoke about breaking up. But it was my stupid thought, for a fraction of a second, because it's such a big deal with my parents & we have all these lame rules because of past shit. Whatever. Honestly, my life would be miserable without you, Jacob. When my parents give me shit, which is like, every 5 seconds, I think of you, or talk to you, & for that moment, everything seems okay. I love you. & I mean it (:

Anyway,

This weekend was nice. Friday after school, I hung out with Andrea, Britni, Emma & her John, haha. We went downtown to F-Futs to an open mic. We saw Garrett's band play, which was the cutest thing of my life. After they were done, Garrett sat next to me & we caught up a little bit. We watched Javarius play the piano & sing some. It was really great. We then went to Piccolo's to eat some pizza. Andrea was gay & couldn't sleep over. My mom came & picked the rest of us up, minus John, & we got home & watched Office Space & read Jacob's book of Larson's comics. Which are all hilarious. The next day, we had a bake sale at Wal-Mart. It was cool yelling at people to buy some cookies. Jacob picked me up & we went to the Safety Fair for free food! hahaha, score :p Saw an old friend & she told me some stuff was going down at church that night, so to go. Then we went to my house & watched RunFatboyRun, which was a sweet movie (:
Thennnn we went to the movies to watch Watchmen! Lolololololol "Who watched the Watchmen?" We do! I thought it would be dumb, since it's about superheros, & we hadn't even read the book or anything, but it was actually really good. Except it was a little too dramatic, but it's all good. Then we went to church, saw everyone I hadn't seen in months, because I stopped going to church. It was like skits & stuff, which was funny. We sat front row, & of course, my laugh always draws attention. Especially when it's very quiet & everyone on stage looks right at me. Cool. On the way outta there, we got stopped by some dumbass policeman, because we weren't paying attention & we were going too slow. My bad, asshole. We got home, eventually.
The next day, I slept till like 1. Which is pretty late for me, because I normally wake up like 9 or something Saturdays. But not Sunday. One time I slept till 3. Anyway, I was going to band practice with Jacob, but some people decided not to show up. Blah, blah, I don't feel like writing anymore. I've got to get to class all the way across campus. Bye.

New phonnnne!

Yes, yes, yes. Friday, I got my new phone in the mail,

and i love emma to fucking death! she is so awsome, and pretty, and nice, and coool, and blonde.

^ & Emma hacked this while I was talking to Andi.

Anyway. Yes! It's a Sidekick 2. & it's so cute. It's not the one everyone else gets fo' free at T-Mobile, I ordered this shit on eBay!

So give me yo numbahhh! (: