I feel disgusted

I feel disgusted with myself.
With everyone I know/used to know.
With everything they do or say.
I'm disgusted with people trying to be something they're not.
Disgusted with how they choose to portray themselves.
I'm disgusted with how I used to be, how I used to act,
how I used to talk, how I used to think.
I'm sick of not making sense.
Not even in my own head do I make sense.


Fuck Renata.
Fuck you.
Fuck everything.

I wish people took some pride in themselves once in a while.
I wish everyone wasn't so worthless in my eyes. In your eyes.


I'm insane, basically.
I babble on about nothing.
Not only do I babble in my head, I have to do it on Blogger.

I apologize.

Soon to be deleted.