My summer is ruined.

Well, for the most part. So yesterday, there were flyers going around the school: International Student Volunteers. You can travel to Australia, Costa Rica, Ecuador, South Africa, New Zealand, Dominican Republic, Thailand, & Eastern Europe. You can do just two weeks of volunteer service like, helping build houses & communities, helping children at school & teaching them english & just being with them, & then shit like rainforest regeneration, sea turtle & elephant conservations, etc. Like, holy shit. How AMAZING does that sound?! & then the other deal is a 4 week package with the two weeks of volunteer service & then two weeks of adventures like white water rafting, scba diving/snorkeling on exotic reefs, canyoning & cave explorations, horseback riding to hidden waterfalls, etc. That sounds soooo cool. But I would mainly want to go for the volunteer work. This is WHAT I want to do. So badly. I want to make a difference in someone else's life. I want to feel good in knowing that I helped someone. So me, Andi, & Britni skip lunch to go to the meeting to find out more about it. The whoooole time me & Andrea are shrieking at everything the lady talks about & we're on the verge of peeing & crying. When we ask if we have to be 18. Yes. The answer was yes. & then my heart ripped in two & I really almost cried /: 18 year olds ruin my life. So therefore my dreams for this summer are crushed. EXCEPT! The lady also mentioned they have a high school program. Which sounds good, but not AS good. Because then we get treated like children & we don't get to do everything the other group does. & I really wanna go to Thailand & help children & build communities & feed elephants who were rescued. It's such an amazing opportunity. It really does kill me I'm not old enough. When we left that meeting I wanted to kill everyone I saw, because it was at the college, & EVERYONE is basically older than 18. & there were only like 5 other people at that meeting. KILL EVERYONE. Like no one cares. Fuck everyone, for real. & then I heard some people say that we should help around here in the state or in this country & I was like FUCK THAT, because people have so many opportunities to fucking get a job or raise money SOME HOW, some shit, you know? So fuck that. & fuck this economy. I haven't said the pledge of Alligance since like 7th grade. Fuck this government. Foreign countries have a different style of government, like some don't have a choice. Like a dictatorship & some don't have fucking WATER. How sad is that. So that's why I want to help them so much. I really do.


Jacob has been over while I was typing half of this. telling me stories about camp. & he knows how to fence. So make fun him. Tee hee. Alright, he's whining for me to get over with this three page blog. Bye.