All I can think about

is how sad I'll be when Jacob has to go.

"This story's old but it goes on & on until we disappear

Calm me &let me taste the salt you breathed while you were underneath

I am the one who haunts your dreams of mountains sunk below the sea

I spoke the words but never gave a thought to what they all could mean

I know that this is what you want, a funeral keeps both of us apart.

You know that you are not alone, I need you like water in my lungs."

This weekend we had girls night, we went to watch Inglorious Basterds, which was so awesome. Beside the point, we all went to Emma's & I started reading the letters John has written to Emma. Apparently, I'm the only one who can read them. Anyway, they were sosososoooo sweet. I cried at like, every one of them. Not only because it reminds that Jacob is pretty close to enlisting, but because I never thought John was that sweet. He acts all tough around everyone else, but inside, he's just a a bucket of love[: Haha.

It makes me sad though :l

As short as 3 months may seem, it really feels like a lifetime.

I know nothing bad will happen during basic training, that's not what I'm worried about.

I'm just scared when he's ACTUALLY out there, something bad will happen. Or some military slut will make him do weird drills, haha :p

I'm really willing to stick through it.

Just so you know.

I love that boy way too much to let anything get in the way.

<3