I can't believe

how great my life is. & I'm not like "MY LIFE IS SO AWESOME" or bragging or anything like that. I just feel like the luckiest person in the world. My boyfriend makes me way too happy. He doesn't think any of the things I do are creepy. He jokes with me & laughs with me until our stomachs hurt. He is the just perfect for me & anything I've ever wanted/needed, will want or need.
that's all.

:)

Well, here goes

I don't knowwwwwwwww!
Finally, Emma is going to let me fucking meet Clarice.
That bitch. BOTH OF THEM.

Jiving Java tonight? I dunno what the hell that is, but I'm going, because I like watching/hearing Jamie play. Maybe I'll even jive some java? Whatev.
Got my anatomy lecture extra credit done! & I just need my lab extra credit & I just hate having lab the day after lecture D:
hate life.

Oh yeah

I can still never do anything.
Things are better.
& of course, none of you know what I'm talking about.
But that's okay, because you don't need to know. Because I KNOW.
& that's all that matters. Blogger, you're really just here so I can get things off my chest.


Mountain Dew Voltage is the sheeeeeeeeeit.
I have an English paper due tomorrow & I have half of a rough draft written.
Also, I have my big first Anatomy test Monday, which I REALLYREALLYREALLY need to study for.

Yesterday was cool.
I came to school, & I went to the gym right after. I felt awesome.
After I had sweat a bunch, I brought my stuff so I can shower. Now,
beleive me when I say this, you don't want to run around nekkid in the women's locker room
with all these old ladies are hangin out. litterally. titties & everything.
So, I went in the shower, before I started taking my clothes off. When then I turn the shower on & I realize I still have my bra on. But it only got a little wet. & I forgot they took out the hand dryers, so I had to use some paper towel. fuck.
but anyway, the rest of the day was good, straightened some things out with Jacob.
I wish I could go to the gym again today, but I promised Jacob I would see him.
I will tomorrow & then again & again everyday, unless it's a Jacob day:)


Well, I'm off to procrastinate.

Basically

everyone is stupid. & I don't mean it sarcastically. Everyone gets on my nerves, & I just don't care anymore. If people are really my friends & they give a shit, they're still by my side. & if everyone else left, then good fucking riddance. I'm glad I'm not wasting my time with anyone I don't need. & by the way, this is to no one specific, so no one start any shit, because of a goddamn blog. I've got 5 people who I call my friends. Who won't get mad over anything stupid. Who will understand. Who will hang out with me & laugh with me. Jacob, Britni, Andrea, Emma, & David, thank you for not being a total douche. & fuck ANYONE who talks about this blog.

Doors will open & they will close.

Life is going on. I'm too busy for anything anymore. I have to be focused, & no one is going to hold me up with any nonsense.

Like you, Blogger! I have to do some work, bye.

Also, I still try to be nice to everyone. Even if I don't like them. I'm still nice, I still try to joke around. I'm polite. I'm fucking better than that.

Everything is great.

Jacob & I have decided to take it to the next step. (not what you think)
but all I can say is I can be myself in whatever the situation is, & not worry about hurting anyone's feelings or feeling bad or feeling whatever.
It does feel good to let go [:

I just can't wait.

I just can't wait.

I can't wait to move out & into a shitty apartment with my friends.

& then move out of there, in with Jacob. & have a big ferrett cage & a big comfy couch.

I can't wait to get my associates as a registered nurse, & then get accepted into a big ol' fancy university.

I can't wait to do girly things, because I want to be a girl sometimes. & I like screaming & laughing & shopping & dress up.

& then I can't wait to relax with my Jacob & cuddle like there's no tomorrow.

I can't wait to get the most out of life.

No one will ever hold me back.

Goodbye.

I think

I just died a little inside last night.

Heeeeeeeeeeelllllls yeah

Raise at work. 7.50 to 8.00

Fuck. Yes.

Also, I'm forcing Britni to come with me to a mechanic tomorrow, because I'm scared I'll have to pay jillions of dollars to repair my car. HELP!