Friday night

Yes, my usual Monday blog about what happend over the weekend! Tee hee<3

I forced everyone to listen to me play, terribly, 'Jesus in the Southern Sky' on guitar. Poor Britni. She had to record it on Andrea's camera. & poor Emma had to sit there & listen while we played & played for a billion hours straight. My poor fingers were purple by the time we were done. Apparently, everything is poor in this blog, haha. We destroyed that song, because my low e string was loose & it sounded terrible. I was sick, so my singing part was bad. We missed some parts of the song, & I messed up a couple of times, & I make stupid faces when I play, & I do a lot of stupid things. I'm just stupid, haha. &! I know you wanna see it, so here it issss!
Have a good chuckle, & then look at the original video posted below it. Greatest thing ever, I think everyone should be obsessed with it ;]



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NE0mtrJW46I <---- ours

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZ9ZXalCn9M <---- epic

I hate everyone

I hate everyone who thinks we have to be the most fucking mature adults, ever, by the time we're 14 & we're in the 9th grade. Fuck you. I have a life time ahead of me, to grow up. I REFUSE to have to force myself to fit anyone else's standards of living my life. I'm 15. I'm in the 11th grade. If I die tomorrow or in 30 years, I want to live my life the way I fucking want to live it. I'm sick of everyone trying to keep me down or forcing me to strive 'greater'. It's not great for me. It just makes me hate you. All of my teachers, "friends", anyone, who does this to me, don't expect me to be nice, any longer. I'm way too nice to people who don't deserve it. I'm done with all of you. This is all shit. If you don't like me or the way I wanna do me, then leave me the fuck alone. I don't need you & your shit, especially. Holy, fuck.

I wish I lived in a different era

The 60s/70s/&80s. I wish I were born in like 1951 or something. So I could be the most war-protesting, peaceful, animal/human rights protestor, LSD-doing, pot smoking person, ever. Those were the days. To live free & be young & as crazy as you can. I really would've loved all of that. The government is shit, as it has always been. Drugs were definitely more hardcore back then, & no one really cared. It was all about having good times. There wasn't as much violence either. Like, publically. I would've loved living on the road with a bunch of friends, protesting about things we really believed in & trying to set things right in the world<3 & Woodstock? 3 days of peace & music, you know me!

Thanksgiving weekend

was pretty advernterous. I went to Rhode Island to see family. Wednesday afternoon me & madre began our journey of driving for 13 hours. Along with my little brother & grandma. Which, by the way, I'm never taking a road trip with them ever again. Because they have to pee every 5 seconds & talk about the most random things. So, I pretty much drove like, 10 hours straight & only stopped to put gas in. I'm definitely road trip material. My mom wanted to stop like, every 20 minutes to sleep or eat, but I just kept going. Doing 90 on all the highways? You know me! & my permit! bahahah. Anyway. We stopped in PA, I think; at like, midnight to pee. At an AppleBee's. I almost died, because I think every cute guy & their friends decided to be there. & I looked like a monster, because I hadn't taken a break from driving & I was just a mess. Thank God they were leaving though. I really do have the worst luck in the world with unexpected tooties. So anyway. We got to my brother's house on Thanksgiving day in Providence at like 4 am, thanks to me. That day, I swear I had never seen so much food. I think I ate like, at 4 different houses. I'm ridiculous, rofl. I loved seeing my brother's & my little nephew--adorable. I also went to visit my sick great aunt. It's so sad to know that she's dying. It really does break my heart that we can't do that much more for her. Sigh. It was so good seeing family, even though I'll be seeing them all again in like, 2 weeks, because they're coming down for my grandmother's birthday on the 14th. She'll be 88. Anyway, that Friday, I went to an old best friend's house. Stephen Tartaglia. We had been best friends all through middle school & it was such an intense feeling seeing him, because I hadn't in almost 3 years. Although we might've grown apart some, it wasn't awkward at all. Then a few more friends came over & everyone looked so different. I met 2 people that day. I had talked to them a lot over MySpace & finally met. It was cool. Not as awkward as I expected, teehee. There are few more friends I would've liked to see, but I didn't keep in touch or stupid stuff got in the way, blah, blah, blah. Thennnn Saturday I hung out with my cousin. It's weird with him, because he's such a stoner & there's hardly any conversation anymore, besides dro. But I still love him. Hahah. This weekend was super fun. There's a few things I left out though. For the sake of my teachers or family reading this, muahah. I drove home last night. Traffic was absolutely insane. It was raining like, the whole time & there were so many accidents. Not to mention people can't drive, so they slowed traffic down even more. I'm so exhausted. & I'm quite sick. I saw snow, though! For the first time in a few years. As soon as we left Rhode Island, I think we were in CT or NY & it started to snow. I caught some on my tongue when we stopped to put gas in. I miss that. & the BEACH. I haven't been to the beach since I've moved here. Well, I have in Cancun, but those were on trips. Still. &! When I go to Peru for 2 weeks, I'll be at a beach house, because the climates are reversed. So, in December it'll be summer. Yum! Anyway. I enjoyed this Thanksgiving. Tell me about yours<3

Saturday

So, it didn't go as I had planned. But it was fun (: I was trying to get to the show, but I guess Jacob decided to stay home & eat dinner with his family, or something like that, hahah. But anyway, let me start from the beginning. So, I went with Madre to Hickory, early, like at 11 am. & we took Molly to Petsmart to get groomed. Did that, & in the same plaza, there's a music center, where I bought my capo :D Anyway, we went to the mall where she did Christmas shopping or something. & she bought me moccasins! MMMMM, SO WARMSZSZZZ! Hahaha. & so, I walked around the mall forever, by myself. & I think every cute boy in the WORLD decided to be there, at the exact same time. Good thing it was one of those days where you think you look good, & I was super comfy. Anyway. We went to go pick up Molly from PetSmart. I almost drooled, over the cutest boy I have EVER laid eyes on. NOT even kidding. & he smiled at me. & I think time stopped. Hahahaha. I think I melted. That's when Britni called me back. & I was petting all of the cute puppies. & he was around there, & he really did look a bit familiar. & I was going to talk to him, but before I did, Mom yelled for me to leave. I was like "NOOOOOOO" D: Well, at least I know he works there Saturdays ;D bahaha. Anyway. Mommypoo went to get her hair did, & so she gave me the car to go back home to drop off Molly, pick up Britni, & get some groceries. You know me & my legal driving! Hahaha. Then, we were off to Hickory again. No call from Jacob, so we just hung out downtown. We hung out in Tees for a bit & drank some coffee. & might I add, the coffee making boy was cute. & took a picture of me & his spoon. (I was kind of complaining, but in a jokingly way, about how my caramel macciato tasted, so he gave me a spoon to stir, because I hate stirrers.) & he was pretty cute, & blah, blah, blah. Then, we went & saw "Step Brothers". IT WAS HILARIOUS. & we were basically stranded there until midnight. We hung out in Drips, where we met some pretty alright kids. Which we hung out the rest of the night with. It was freezing, but at least my feet were warm! ;]



Currently:
I feel like total shit, because my best friend is going through the hardest times, & I can't be there for her physically, & it fucking kills me. I love you, Lauren. I hope everything works out. & I would give anything just to be there, but you know /:

Success!

I perfected how to play "Jesus In The Southern Sky". Also, I learned how to play "Not A Second To Waste", by Rocket To Then Moon! I also went through a bunch of old tabs that my old guitar teacher used to give me. I can remember how to read tabs now. Well, you know what I mean. Actually, whatever, I know what I mean. & that's all that matters.
Last night, my friend Nick tried to convince me that I wasn't real, & that his mind was the only one that exisited, & I was only part of his imagination. & I didn't think. He's gay. Haha :P
Oh, well, I don't think he reads my blogs, anyway. I don't think anyone does. Oh, well. I just want to get thoughts out of my head (:
Anyway, my entire body is sore from raking leaves. I raked for like, 7 years yesterday, haha. & I still haven't finished. Ugh. But! When I was raking, I realized that the view of the sky is best in my backyard. It was so pretty.
Yesterday, I finished reading "Of Mice & Men". I think I liked it, mostly. Except I just can't stand to read in a hick, gramatically incorrect, super Southern dialouge. It's so annoying. At least it wasn't as annoying as "The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn". Hated it. I'm now reading Andrea's Africa book "A Long Way Gone". It should be good. I finished reading the book with Memma in my made up British accent! We're on book two.

I really do like reading.

Saddest thing I have ever seen.

Yesterday, I went to Wendy's, & right by the drive-thru window, was a dog. It was a bitch. It looked as if it just had puppies, because it had like, big boobies or whatever. & you could see some of her ribs. & I threw one of my french fries, so she could eat it, & she was like, scared to go near it, but then she ate it & I gave her almost all of my fries. It was the saddest thing, ever. I felt so bad. I wanted to take her home, but I wonder if she has her puppies around somewhere in the bushes or SOMETHING. So, I'm making my mom call animal control today to go rescue her, & nourish her back to health. & find her puppies. She's really shy. I felt like crying. Saddest thing of my life. Then I started thinking about homeless people. & I felt even worse.

I wish I had all the money & food in the world to help everyone in need.

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